Hi thank you for this.
Just listening to Angela on Jeremy Vine show.
Much of it was like listening to my own childhood.
I was however, hit and grabbed around the neck by my mother. My dad, who I was very close with, died the day after my 11th birthday from stomach cancer. I am the oldest of 4 siblings, all of whom have lived with me at different times of their lives. They had a very different, albeit dysfunctional, relationship with her.
During my teen years she told me I had killed my father.
My mother is still living, we have not lived in the same country since 1980, but for many years I visited, phoned and put up with her verbal abuse, sneers and put downs.
However, what she put me through made me stronger and determined that my children would be brought up very differently 😀 she gave me a template of what not to do, although like all other parents I haven’t always got it right.
I too married very young, 19, and am still with my husband. In our 20s we worked as ‘houseparents’ running a small family group children’s home. I had a baby and my second child was born the following year. My husband followed his own career. The long term youngsters, who are now in their 40s and 50s have remained very close to us and our three children.
It is now over 10 years since I made the decision not to maintain contact with my mother, as she not only continued to criticise me, but then turned her nasty attention to my amazing daughters, I asked her to stop and said I would hang up if she carried on - she carried on, so I hung up. And that has been it.
I am in touch with one of my sisters who lives in Australia and I guess I will be emailed when my mother passes away. I am resigned to that - I did my very best for 55 years and just came to the end of a very long tether.
My 3 daughters and one of my foster daughters live nearby, I have 8 birth and 3 foster grandchildren (two of my daughters foster) two more of my foster kids are planning to live locally too.
During my time as a foster career I completed an OU degree in sociology and psychology and later went to University to qualify as a Social Worker. I have spent my life working with families 😀
At 68 I am still working part-time as an OU lecturer, surrounded by my amazing children and grandchildren of whom I am so proud.
I am sharing this to show that adversity can make you stronger and history doesn’t need to repeat itself. I have never contributed to a forum like this before.
With every new life stage I have gone through, I can see what my mother has missed out on - ending her years as a bitter, acerbic old woman who has never been interested in any of her grandkids - even my siblings children.
Thanks for letting me share this.