Author Topic: Guilt  (Read 2366 times)

Caroline Mills

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Re: Guilt
« on: April 17, 2017, 05:56:51 pm »
My father was the gentle parent, he died when I was 15. My mother told me it was my fault he died because he had worked himself to death to spoil me. I'm still amazed that anyone could say that to a child who had just lost her father. After he died we found out he was having an affair, not surprising as my mother treated him the same way as me, always nagging, always criticising. I always wondered how life might have panned out if he hadn't died...would he have left and taken me with him?

I didn't have to leave home. As soon as I started work, my mother sold the house and moved to the coast. I was working in London so I had to find a bedsit, but at least it meant I got away.

I have no guilt at all, she was a total ****. I have no family of my own, I couldn't take the chance that I would turn out like her, and I had no other example to follow.

My mother died at 95, still sniping at me.