I am so very sorry to hear this - what a dreadful story. When you have to endure surgery like that you feel that you want to be supported and loved. So it is awful if your mother lets you down at such an important time. It is not surprising that you feel so devastated after all you will have been through. Please give yourself time to recover both physically and emotionally. Be kind to yourself and maybe find comfort with good friends? Have a look at our coping page for ideas about looking after yourself. You are important and having surgery is never easy, so you deserve to be loved and cared for.
Very best wishes,
Alyson